Sometimes there are things that swim around in my head. There are questions that I ask. There are answers that I lack. There is direction that evades me.
And do I know the answers? Really? When I'm broken and honest and void of myself?
Yeah, I do know that God is the solution. I know that He is the answer. He offers the direction. And I know that He knows that I doubt and waiver and ask. And He loves me in spite of that. And He helps me to see His way through. It's not easy and I mess it up A LOT! I don't why He does it, but I'm glad that He does. every. stinking. day.
But I still ask these crazy questions. I still try to solve the problems in my own head with my own power. And I still hurt. And I still doubt. And I still wonder.
I wonder if I'll ever get to a place where I don't. And if I ever get there, I wonder if I'll find some other place to be weak in.
We'll all get there...it's called Heaven. Until then, we just keep striving. And if we never ask, we never see his greatness.
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