Today is my blogiversary. Last year I started blogging to participate in NaBloPoMo.
I blew it last year and failed to post one day and thought all hope was gone that I would keep going with the blogging. But I've made it a year, and what a year it has been!
When I look back over my writing, I can see in myself that having a place like this has helped me to grieve out loud, learn about myself, and connect with new people.
I'm much further down the road of grief than I ever thought I'd be. Last year, I never thought I'd be able to say that. I couldn't imagine a day that I wouldn't cry about her being gone. One more year removed, I can honestly say that it's been about 4 weeks since I cried about her absence in my daily life. Writing that down feels a little callous compared to how sad I was this time last year, but I know that it's not callousness but a wholeness. It's a wholeness that I didn't even realize was possible in the middle of the lowest parts of my grief.
It's kinda cool to be able to go back and see that.
I guess I'll write more tomorrow. I'll talk about what I've learned about myself. Stay tuned. I will make it this year.
Yep you will!! Like you said we're in it together!!
ReplyDeleteI am so glad you have survived the grieving process. Being that I've been through it too, I don't think we ever really get through it or over it but we do learn how to survive and cope with our lose! I know SHE would be so proud of you!! I look forward to reading about what you have learned!!
Happy writing!!